Whe one is an atheist

It is not fiction to say....
That we have become atheists ,
For although we profess God exists...
Our minds do not embrace it

We may say and shout....
None exists save God,
But in reality....
None exists in our minds

I too am guilty...
For I too have this frailty,
Forgetting None exists except Him
except when all hope is lost and dim

None here can say....
That in one time in his life
He himself did not stray...
Claiming not would mean he has failed.....

I stand in the door...
Of Mercy and Mystery...
Knowing at that knock,
Lies the guide to the light

If indeed the guide...
Has led me to the light,
So shall I say,
I am an atheist no more....

Allahumma Salli ala Sayidna Muhammad an-Nur wa alihi